I have noticed

that I don't think any normal person can lose weight without exercising. Yes, I know it IS possible, but I don't know how. I get 1400 calories per day. Seems fair. I often have 600-1100 left over each day but ONLY because I earn about 600 exercising. How the heck do you get through the day on 1400, which is probably a lot (but I weigh a lot).

I often make it through the whole work day without eating into my 1400 calories. Which is why I have so many more left over. You can only eat so much (and I don't want to). For breakfast I might have: a cup of strawberries or a cup of Special K and half a cup of low fat milk or oatmeal (which I HATE) Snack (any variety, twice a day): cucumber strawberries apple banana carrots I LOVE the Fresh and Easy fruit packs for $1.24 perfect amount Lunch: soup (most days) salad frozen meal meat and cheese Dinner: Is whatever I am making but I measure it out. I like to have popcorn at night, but any of the above snacks works too.

I try and get creative. Although, for the most part, I can eat the same thing everyday and it won't bother me. Since I enjoy soup and Progresso has so many varieties it is easy to change it up. A whole can of soup can be as little as 120 calories! It is great because I feel like I am eating all the time so I usually don't feel hungry. Some days though, I am really hungry. I try to bring a VERY large salad and leave it at work with a low cal dressing in the fridge so if I find myself still hungry I have a good choice.

This is all new for me but already I find myself making the better choice over and over again. I finally understand that commercial for cereal where the girl is looking at the cake and they say "do you want to ruin your whole day". I used to think "Why not, you were good all day" but now, oh now, I understand. But sometimes, not very often, but sometimes, I still go for the cake (or whatever it is). This is still life. The point of being healthy is to enjoy it, all aspects of it. Making good choices all week and allowing one larger, delicious meal (especially if it is at Anepalcos Cafe) is worth it. Sometimes I will go out for a walk before enjoying the less healthy item. Even though I have calories left, I feel SO much better about eating it.

Changes. They are happening. Each and every day!

Changed my life

About two months ago I changed my life. I didn't really make a decision to do it, it just happened. I wanted to make sure it was going to stick, so here it is.

We were at the La Galaxy in early April (maybe late March) and on my way to the restroom my leg (on the side of my knee) was itching like crazy. In the restroom I reached down and scratched it really hard. I almost cried out in pain it hurt so bad. I looked down and my previously superficial varicose vein was large and pulsating. That is what itched. Oh my gosh, I was freaked out. I am not an over reactor at all, but I was scared. The whole second half of the game it hurt. I sat worried and in pain.

A few days later, I noticed a HUGE bruise where it had previously itched. It was easily as big as the palm of my hand, easily. It freaked me out. That was it. I live a sedentary life. For the most part, I sit at a desk all day and then I come home and sit most of the night. I had to change that. April 4th I started using My Fitness Pal. I had used it before, but this time I was serious. I started walking as soon as I got home. I went about half a mile and then I would walk after dinner, about the same. It was hard. My body was so out of shape but I had to do it. I was going about .81 miles per day in 16 minutes.

That went on for a couple of weeks. I increased my distance using the app Endomondo. April 13th I was up to 1.38 miles in 25 minutes. Not a lot but I felt good. I was going a bit faster too.

I was having shin splints. My feet hurt. My knee a bit. Every step was painful. Every step hurt. I knew the shin splints would go away, just had to wait them out. I was more worried about my feet. I have had a couple of cortisone shots in one of my feet just so I could walk. It was kind of a catch 22 and I wasn't going to give up. At one point, I had such a massive pain in my right back leg muscle, I could hardly move once I was still. Walking helped, but I had to stop at some point.

Okay, I realized I was serious. Time to get some good shoes. The local shoe store we used before closed. I didn't want to go to a Snail's Pace because it is so busy, so we headed to REI. I explained what I needed, after trying on 4 pair of shoes, I found the right one's. I am ready. I can handle some pain, this is important and it has to be done. Eric suggested I take Sunday's off to let my body recover. I decided to do just that.

By April 5th I was down 3 pounds.At some point I decided it was too difficult to fit in two walks after coming home from work. There were always variables in the way, so I would wake early. I told myself one night, if you wake up at 6 tomorrow (my normal time is 7) out walking you will go. What do you know, it happened! Mocha and I went out at 6am and walked. I was able to walk, come back with enough time to sit for 10 minutes before waking the kids and getting ready for the day.

I was VERY good at making sure I ate nothing bad for a bit. That has tapered a bit but only where I will allow the occasional item. I mean, this is still life. The point is to be healthier overall. I still count calories and I walk at least 5 days a week, most of the time, 6 days a week and I love it. I love how I feel when I am done and how I feel all the time. I never thought this was true, but I honestly am happier. Just happier. I think I smile more. I feel WAY better. I have muscles. I feel them working when I am hardly doing anything at all now. It is amazing.

Tomorrow will be the 2 month mark since I changed my life. Not dieting. Not watching what I eat. Not focusing on losing weight. Changing my life. I am currently down 22 pounds. I walk about 2.15 miles per day (only once a day for the most part) and I often find myself with plenty of calories left over.

Oh, at some point, the varicose vein popped again. Another bruise, not quite as large, but I wasn't as worried. I knew I was doing everything I can. Today, it is superficial again. You can't change until you are ready and ready comes for everyone in a different way. I knew I needed to change, but until it happened, it just didn't...happen.

Eating right is so much easier than I thought it would be. Knowing the calories before you eat is key for me. As my friend Linda says "Once you know, you can't not know". This is true. If I find myself craving chocolate, one or two M&M's eaten slowly are just enough. Not downing the whole bag and then wondering where it has gone. I have gained a couple of pounds twice, but it is okay, I focus and move on.

I feel like a new person. I love that Siobhan assumes when I am home and going to pick her up that means we have to walk. ha ha WHAT?! No way would she have thought that a couple months ago. I hope to write more about how my life is changing. How I am in control.

Ear Ring(s)

I can not wear regular earrings, even if I change them everyday, because I have very sensitive skin. I often don't bother. No reason to have sore earlobes for a couple days to wear something for a few hours.

For my birthday many, many years ago, Eric had me pick out some diamond earrings for my birthday. Some I could finally wear and not have to remove. I was so excited. I LOVE those earrings.

Lately I had to remove them every few months for a few days because I was getting irritated by them. I usually put them on my computer stand inside my wedding ring (don't EVEN get me started on that!).

One day I went to put my earrings in and... I couldn't find one! OH NO! I looked everywhere. I thought it might have fallen on the floor so I was on my hands and knees...nothing. I looked every time we swept for the next couple of weeks...no earring.

I told Eric maybe I would get the diamond made into something for Siobhan. I don't know, I wanted to do something with it, but alas it sat there. Week after week.

Yesterday I came home from work and Eric and the kids had done some rearranging in the house. I was talking about how great it looks and Siobhan comes up with my EARRING! I could NOT believe it. After a couple of months, it shows up. Not only does it show up but it shows up TWO rooms away. I held Siobhan and cried and cried. I was so happy. I was SO SO happy.

I still need to find a back for one of them but wow, I can't believe she found them. I honestly can't tell you how happy it makes me. Really, really happy!

I must have done something right somewhere. Karma!

Leftovers

I am awful about leftovers.

I will go to the trouble of making some really wonderful meal (pozole, pot roast, etc) and then end up throwing the leftovers away.

Usually I just forget about them. I think part of the reason is because we eat out so much. When I go to work I am pretty good about using those leftovers as lunch. Since I have been off work because of the holidays and now this flu, well they sit there.

Eric will take leftovers if I package them up and he doesn't have it the next day. But to be honest, by then I have usually forgotten. ha ha

I did realize, I think what I need to do is buy more containers for lunches and just put everything away like that. I invision our fridge with the small, ready to go lunches for the week.

That is what must happen. I think it is the only way. My next outing I will get the proper size and hope and pray that the lids don't go to some far away place that lids and socks disappear too.

Leftovers shall be eaten. I will mentally add this to my Small Things list

Small Things

Maybe it is the small things?

Maybe resolutions tend not to work because we make them so big or general. I want to lose weight or save money. Or I want to lose X (all you could possibly lose) and save X amount of dollars.

Maybe it would be better to think small. Go for a target that is reachable and a goal that is accomplishable. Once that goal is accomplished, another small goal could be set and so on and so on. You may never reach that end goal but you might be almost there.

Let's say you are pretty sure you can save $20 a week, why not set a goal of $10 or even $5. It is completely obtainable and you won't feel bad when you don't do it.

You need to lose weight. Instead of setting the goal at the total amount, set something more obtainable. How about 2 pounds in two weeks. Most anyone can do that. Of course the more weight you need to lose the higher the number could be, but still, you won't hate yourself if you don't do it.

Going to the gym,cleaning the house, etc. any other goals could be reached the same way. Aim small. Chances are if you met those goals you will continue on to your ideal goal.

I heard on the news they said if you have goals you should share them. Tell people. The more likely you are to tell people the more likely you are to stick with it. I am not sure this works with all people, but I could see how it might help.

I am willing to share mine. So here goes...

I will save $20 a pay period. I know I could do more but I am not so good with saving as it is, so I will start very small. It will not be in my regular accounts where I have immediate access to it, but I shall begin with the pay period that just past (transferring $20 now! DONE!).

I am going to start eating better. I think I can not use weight as I currently do not own a scale, but I can do something more manageable. I will vow to not eat TWO things I think about eating in a weekly period Sunday to Saturday. This does not mean I will save them up to wait until the new week begins either. These will obviously be things I should not have in the first place. Training the mind is what I am planning here.

I know I need to spend a bit more time cleaning up around the house. I am not a cleaner by nature. ha ha Not at all! I shall spend at least ten minutes per day doing something extra. Not the usual stuff like washing dishes, but something extra. Even I can do ten minutes a day!

So, these are things I will do as of today. Today because today is the day I set out to do them...wish me well!

What was that again?

It isn't that I haven't anything to write about. It's that what I think I will write about is usually in my head in the shower, in the car, while I am walking at work and the next thing I know...poof gone forever!

What was that really creative or deep thought I had earlier? That gem of an idea? I might have even made a quick note to remind me and then I think "What the hell did I mean here?"

Old age? Brain too full already? Maybe I am in a constant Twilight Zone. Yes! That is it!

I am not a creative person really. I get creative on a few things a few times a year, but that's it. I do believe that the more you do it, the more it will come. This blog used to be my source. I thought that since I am able to do it with my phone it might come more frequently. That has not been the case.

I have had this blog since 2004. Coming up on NINE years. My thoughts, dreams, passions have been posted here. Some pretty amazing photos and giggles as well. I have decided I don't want to give it up.

It isn't about other people reading it. It is about me. Me thinking, feeling, sharing even when there is no one to share with. I could easily think of something to write each and every day, but I want to feel when I am here. I am hoping to make this another big part of my life.

Here's to hoping!

Say Good-bye November

"Good-bye November"

Red eye

Not the flights. Not pink eye. Red eye. It itches. It tears. It is red. I hate it. It is swollen too. Argh.

It happened in the car. At work. In the house. Obviously I am allergic to myself. Wonderful!

Library

I enjoy taking the kids to the library but the only way it works for us is if we have a schedule and stick to it. Otherwise those overdue fines...

Although in reality the fines throughout the year probably don't even add up to a book or two. I am going to start thinking of it is a donation! ha ha

Waiting

Waiting in the car listening to Wait Wait while Siobhan does her homework while Diego has soccer practice.

I believe this is the last week if practice and thankfully because it is earlier and earlier and it is harder and harder to get here.

Diego has a game on Saturday which is also the MLS cup final for the LA Galaxy. Surprisingly he said he would rather play then go. We have decided to allow him to play the early game, hope they win that one. The next one he will miss while being at the Cup and possibly play the following day as well.

Fingers are crosses that all games we attend that day are winners!

Long Weekend

I think we should have more of these longs weekends. It is time to be together, get things done or even go on a trip. It should be at least twice a year. I think the US should rethink our "holidays". It is good for families!

Thanks Giving

Another Thanksgiving has come and gone. Another day to give thanks. Again, shouldn't we be giving thanks everyday.

I think my favorite part of Thanksgiving, is having four days off. To be honest, I enjoy just hanging out with Eric and the kids and not having to go anywhere or do anything. Just to be together!

Today

Did not go as planned. Nothing bad. Nothing horrible. Just not as planned.

It is ending nicely though!

turntable fm

It seems I am getting more and more people to go to turntable fm. It is so fun when you know everyone in the room. Of course, I always got to know people in the room, but it is different when you ALREADY know them.

Music brings people together!

gobble

We are planning on having tamales for Thanksgiving.

I got a free turkey from Fresh and Easy last night. I think I might make it. I can make just a few things to go with it and we can have both.

I never understood the overabundance of food on Thanksgiving. I mean even if you have a bunch of people, there doesn't need to be enough food to feed them for days?! ha ha

Anyway, if it goes badly, we will still have the tamales, right?

Shopping

Lazy morning in bed. I LOVE those!

Diego had a game this afternoon during the UCLA and USC game and Eric still went! ha ha

Then Siobhan and I dropped off Eric and Diego and out we went again. We went to JC Penny, treated ourselves to Coffee Bean, Macy's and Justice. Once we left the mall, we stopped at Fresh and Easy.

I came home, made dinner and went back out to Albertsons. I am making chili tomorrow and wanted to have everything so I don't have to go out again tomorrow.

Siobhan fell asleep reading about 9:30. I guess I finally figured out a way to wear her out!

Breakfast

Yummy

Love this app

It keeps track of how far you go and how fast. It shows your route. I am still learning it but I like it!

Today's walk...

Lunch

My Mom took me to lunch today. I suggested Denny's. she suggested Red Lobster, she won!

I attached my photos. I had lobster and two types of shrimp. It was really good but not worth the big bucks.


Walked .87 miles in 14.36 today.

Argh

Not two hours after my previous post this was on my desk at work.

I am happy to say I threw it away.


Today I walked .81 miles in 16.4 minutes. A start...

Change WILL come

Okay, I am seriously ready to make a change. I am going to use this blog. I figure few people read it anyway and since I am usually brutally honest anyway…



I need to lose weight. Seriously need to lost weight. I need to stop being lazy about it. I need to stop telling myself how wonderful I am (well I am) and realize that with small, consistent changes, I could be better.



I don’t feel lazy. I like to do stuff and do. Don’t get me wrong, I realize I can have far more energy but I don’t feel like I am currently missing out.



I have a friend who is doing a lot of 3 or 5k’s. Although she runs, and I can’t, I would like to do them. I need to be in better condition. I want to look more attractive. I want to be more beautiful to my husband ( I think it might be possible).



I am not even a foodie. My friend, Linda LOVES to eat. I mean LOVES it. Of course she also works out.



I’m just saying it is time. It needs to happen. I have been thinking a lot lately of weight loss surgery. I am not even sure I agree with me (for me, no judgment for other people). If I think about it so much, I just need to make some changes.



I am saying, starting today, now, changes will occur. I will use this blog to mark them, complain, bitch, whatever. I want to do this. I need to do this. I have to do this.

Friends

Today one of my very best friends attended an La Galaxy game for the first time. The funny thing is that her coming had nothin to do with me.

The Galaxy won 3-0 and I hope she and her family had a wonderful time.

Tonight's dinner

What a wonderfully beautiful day. We laid around and enjoyed the cool morning today.

Diego had a soccer game at 2:30 where he scored two goals (one while playing a Fullback) and he received player of the game!

After that a couple of stops and then Siobhan and I went to the library and another store. I am supposed to be keeping track of the books I read on goodreads.com but I forgot all the time to mark them down.

Decided to make stuffed bell peppers for dinner. They were pretty good! Diego helped by doing so much. He will be able to make things on his own before you know it. I also decided to make some pico de gallo. This store I go to, Buy Low, is so cheap. Albertson's charged one dollar per bell pepper. Buy Low was, I think, 2 pounds for 1.29. Here are some other prices: 2 pounds tomatoes 1.29 5 pounds yellow onions 1.29 6 cilantro a dollar or so Things are so cheap there. I love going just to see what they have. Tonight, the snack will be amazing!

Winter

Finally it feels so nice and cool. Still able to have the windows open with a sweatshirt. I love it. I love wearing sweaters and jackets but not freezing.

It has even rained a bit. I love when it rains. I always wondered if I like it so much because it never happens, or if I just love the rain... I mean, if I lived in Seattle would I feel the same? I shall have to visit to find out I think.

Home for the Day

The doctor took me off for a day to relax and hope the medicine kicks in. It's kinda nice to be off on Doctors orders. It has a different feel to it.

Made myself breakfast this morning. I left it on the couch to answer the phone Mocha stole a piece of toast. Argh. I think (hope) she learned her lesson once I sent her outside.

I was so happy to hear it raining this morning. I just wish it had continued throughout the day. Still it is nice to be home when it is nice a cool. Makes taking a nap much more comfortable.

Again?!

At urgent care again. Currently in the process of getting another breathing treatment for shortness of breath.

I said I would talk about me. I am slowing forgetting the names of things. Not people or places, I was never good with those. The names of things, like mug, glasses, stuff like that. To be honest it freaks me out. Of course I looked it up and it is thing or can be. It worries me though. The worse part is it usually does not come to me. I have to describe it in detail until someone knows what I mean. I will recognize it once they tell but it isn't "tip on my tongue" thing. I just don't know.

It is a bit freaky. It is happening more often and to be honest I try to cover it up since it does scare me. Am I losing what little mind I have?!

Anyway there is something I doubt you knew. Still sitting here literally blowing smoke (see above). Hopefully this treatment helps me because frankly my lungs hurt!

Tears of joy

I feel as though all my children's future will be brighter.

Sitting in the dark

Well not really as I have the TV on. Spent a few hours at Urgent Care tonight. Asthma acts up after a cold.

My pulse Ox was actually good, about 98, but I still couldn't breathe. Dr said I sounded tight. They gave me two breathing treatments which I do not care for. As my friend Linda put it, feels like you are having a heart attack. I feel like a hype. Ha ha Whatever that feels like.

Left with prednisone. Now, four hours later sleep seems nowhere nearby. I'm okay with no sleep as I know I won't be sleepy tomorrow, the joy of this drug.

The downside to it is come, say 4th or 5th day on it the emotions go crazy. Last time I was in it, I had to leave work because I couldn't stop crying for no reason whatsoever.

Sigh. So here I am alone in the semi-dark. Alone, well, with you!

Day of the Dead

Here are a few photos from the Santa Ana Day of the Dead celebration from Saturday.

I blame Sprint

I would have posted Inside the Home Depot Ctr. but a new Sprint would allow me no service! Therefore I will be making it up today by two posts… If that doesn't work oh well

Morning soccer

Our family loves soccer. It started many years ago when Krystal and Bradley started playing. We started going to see the Waves in Santa Ana and then started watching the La Galaxy the very first season they were at The Home Depot center and have had season tickets ever since.

Siobhan played once but didn't really care for it. I think it was all the running. Diego on the other hand LOVES playing. He plays literally every chance he gets.

This morning we are out here early but it is SO worth it. We are actual playing against our cousins! As I said we love soccer!

Always makes me laugh

This video makes me laugh EVERY TIME I watch it. Seriously, I get tears. I mean, the model is funny, but it is the announcers that kill me. The way they laugh and then when he says "ohh ohhh" oh man. I hope you enjoy it.

Click here and it will open in a new window

Keep on laughing

November

Alright so I signed up, again. I shall blog each and every day during this month of Thanksgiving.

I decided to talk about myself this month. Maybe just me, my family or my friends. I thought I would share some of my thoughts, fears and concerns. Maybe things you never knew since I am pretty sure so few people actually read this anyway.

We shall see what the month brings...

Testing the app

Just downloaded the app for Blogger and I want to make sure it works so this is just a test.

Mocha born 6-6-12

Cut off 10 inches to donate

Like a good friend

You can forgot this blog. Put it off. Avoid it and yet, when you need or want it, it is still here.

The blog once a day every day in November always keeps me going for a few weeks but then I fade.

Diego has stared soccer again. Practice twice a week with games on Saturday. The second one was rained out already. He is on a Spring Select team so they play a longer season which he will love because it is all he does. First chance he gets he is outside with his ball.

The La Galaxy started too. Sigh. Wonderful. Although we lost our goalie we kept Beckham which is pretty awesome. And NOT just because he is easy on the eyes either! We have some new friends sitting behind us since our old seat mates did not renew this year.

I have been enjoying my iPhone 4s. Taking SO many photos and posting them all the time. I love being in contact with Eric all the time too. Sweet!

Holiday

I think it has been three weeks since the flip phone. I have enjoyed my iPhone 4s more than I ever thought I would. I thought I would care about being connected, socially, throughout the day. That has been great. I can see what is going on and don't have to get the run down from Eric when I get home. I think what I like even more is being able to take and post pictures of any and everything. I take pictures of just about anything.

I take pictures of the kids. Of the clouds. Of my office. Of my pets. My friends. Anything. I LOVE it. I have taken more pictures of myself than I really care to admit. Mostly I delete them. Every now and again I will e-mail them to my husband. I have sent a couple of the younger kids to my older kids. Just being able to do it amazing. I can't believe how long I have gone without this possibility.

I really enjoyed taking pictures on Thanksgiving. I think as I get more used to having it on hand, I will do more. I hope to get a bit creative with it as well. We shall see...

What a week

I left work early Monday afternoon to go to urgent care. My asthma has been bugging me and didn't seem to be getting any better so I thought I better go in.

When I arrived I was told it would be an hour and a half wait. I knew it wouldn't. I waited about 2 minutes, maybe! Anyway, a breathing treatment, steroids and a couple inhalers later, I left. With two days off work!

Luckily I was able to reach someone that night. I hate calling in the morning. Of course I hardly slept. I slept about 5 hours that night. About 5 hours the next night.

I went to work on Thursday because we were having a holiday party. I didn't really enjoy myself as I was not still feeling up to it yet. I left early this morning. I was crying and shaky. I hate these meds after a few days. today is my last dose so I am hoping to be back to normal by Sunday. I hope so before I drive my family crazy!

Last Day

Well another year of blogging once a day is ending. I like it when it comes along. It reminds me to allow my mind to wander. I do often think in more than 140 characters (although not always).

This November has gone quickly. Christmas will be here quickly. I am somehow going to get through this holiday and not be completely broke by the 24th. haha no more figuring out how to eat for the rest of the month.

asthma

oh this weather is making it hard to breathe. Over rated, breathing? I used to think so. ha ha

Day one with the iPhone at work

Today is day one with the iPhone at work. I'm currently writing this via voice. I watched a little Netflix at lunch. I have definitely going have to bring my charger. It is nice to be able to text my husband during the day. I haven't taken too many pictures yet. It's funny but since it's new I don't want anyone to see Me with it. No need to show off the new toy. I can't wait to see all the wonderful things this Siri can do

Lazy Sunday

A trip to Target. Reading. Watching TV. Turntable.

It's hot. Why is it so hot in late November. I almost turned the ac on

I fell

yesterday. Oh man did I hurt my knee. Diego and I were putting the cart away at BevMo. We had to push our cart hard to get it into the other one, and the one on the other side went out. I was trying to run and catch it before it hit this lady's car and I tripped over Diego's foot.

Eric said he saw a lady talking to Diego and wondered "where is Di?"

Diego started crying, he thought it was his fault. Eric asked if I was okay. I said yes because Diego was so upset but I whispered No. Poor baby boy. Poor me. I think I shall live.

iPhone 4s

Eric and I were waiting and waiting because we knew that Apple would improve on the iPhone 4 and that someday they would go to Sprint.

So the news was out, they were going to Sprint and it was the iPhone 4s. Not completely new but totally different.

Watching the videos on Siri, I was blown away. Eric, we have to get those. Off to the Sprint store I go.

Will we get a discount?

What plans will you have?

What, when, where?

They knew NOTHING! I knew it wasn't the girl's fault but I was so mad.

Forget it.

Weeks and weeks later, Eric comes home with two.

I LOVE it. I may never have to type again!

Thank you

Emma, for one of the best meals I have ever had

Great day

Posting from my iPhone 4S This thing is really amazing Siri is way cool Can't wait to see all the things it does

Some things about me

I might have said all this before, but who cares. No one reads this anyway. c I don't spell well at all.

I HATE spiders. Not that I don't like them. I am scared. They make me want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I like to sort socks (but only when I like to)

I go through phases where all I will do is read and then I can't be bothered to pick up a book for weeks.

I like to cook on Sundays. I can make a big meal, but I don't care for it the rest of the week.

I like loud music

My husband is my best friend and the love of my life. The spark is still there

YES!

The La Galaxy won the MLS Cup! It was SO amazing. Yes there was rain. Yes we were wet. Who cares, it was GREAT! Here is a photo of us all of us pre-game.

That blur in the corner is my husband. haha and yes that is me with a bottle of tequila in hand.

MLS Cup

Today is the day that the LA Galaxy are going to win the MLS cup. I just know it. They just have too. I will make a prediction of 3-1 Galaxy.

More people

I got my friends Andrea and Julie to join me. It really makes it more enjoyable!

Big a@@ tumbleweed

I was driving down the street today when I noticed a big ass tumbleweed. In Anaheim?! WTH. haha I LOVE tumbleweeds! Since the light was red, I thought I would take a picture.

Click on the picture for a full view

It is probably hard to tell how big it is so I took a picture of it next to my car. That thing is HUGE!

Moving

When I started working for the company I work for (13 years ago), it was 7.7 miles from my home. That was great. A quick trip on the freeway and I was there.

Then after many years we moved. We moved closer. Actually to the same city I live in. 3.8 miles away. Still took me about the same amount of time to get back and forth to work (10 minutes) but it much more relaxed. Much more! No freeway. I go down a nice street. Casual.

Lately coming home I need a new route. It is dark when I leave and I can't see very well in the dark and I go through some neighborhoods.

Seems as though I won't have to worry about it because after six years of working and living in the same city (I know not many people can say that), we are moving again.

Yep, another move. We need it. Smaller is necessary. We are moving....4.0 miles away. Ha ha I LOVE it. I could hop on the freeway or I could take a street. Either way. Whatever. Bliss

Turkey Day

Eric and I haven't really had a big deal Thanksgiving. We are both grateful to have the day off (and the next day too) but no big call for a huge meal.

This year our friends Emma and Mikey will be joining us. They are from England. Emma is a wonderful cook. She offered to cook dinner for us. I, of course, accepted. I have no problem with this. None whatsoever!

She sent me our menu. Please see below.

Starters:

Prawn Cocktail

Pate on Toast

Main:

Chicken & Beef

Veggies

Mashed potatoes

Roast Potatoes

Yorkshire Puddings

Stuffing

Pigs in blankets

gravy

Dessert:

Sticky Toffee Pudding

One other thing but undecided.

Oh man I am so excited. It is going to be amazing!

a test

of the non emergency broadcasting station

argh

The LA Galaxy cup final is on Sunday. Diego was scheduled to have his team pizza party at 1 so we figured we would go as soon as possible. Now they have rescheduled the games that we missed due to rain and there is one at 3pm. Obviously he will have to miss it. We are hoping to reschedule the party as well. I know he is going to be sad to miss another game but the boy does have his priorities.

As different as Night and Day

I always laugh (well not ALWAYS) when I walk into Diego's room. When I walk into Siobhan's room I smile. They are so different. I have posted photos of Diego's bed and Siobhan's bed. This is what they look like each and every day. Siobhan never has to be reminded to make her bed. Diego has to be threatened to make his.

I suppose if I were a better mom I might make his bed up for him, but I am not. Not to mention we have already been through two children and frankly, it isn't worth the bother. I think I will have to continue to "show" Diego how to make his bed though. Enjoy and well...be warned. haha

Siobhan's bed (She only has a shirt there because she had to change right before we left)

Diego's bed

What is that on there? A non inflated soccer ball, a folder, a sweater, some pj's, an extra blanket and I have no idea what that black thing is. It looks like what I put my iPad in in my purse.

Change

Change is hard. Change is difficult to say the least.

Maybe the worst part of change is when you think you are trying. Making an effort. Feeling as though you are changing a bit everyday only to find out others don't see it the same.

Maybe change doesn't mean what we think or how we feel but how it is perceived. Maybe it isn't change until someone else says something like "Wow, is that a new hair color?" or "You've lost weight".

Maybe the changes in how you think you are doing are really nothing at all. Of course this means all the thoughts and hard work you thought you were doing mean nothing. That can't be the case though...right?

How do you define change?

Rain and Soccer

Don't go well together. Well, especially not at Diego's age. He missed last weeks game (which was okay because it was first thing). I think he will probably miss tomorrows game if it rains as it is supposed to. It is supposed to start tonight at 10pm and go all day tomorrow.

Although I have never heard of it, they are going to try and have make up games. I think that is great! Diego was so sad he missed a game and may miss another.

We will be waiting and checking the website to see if the game is on!

Today...

I got nothing. I am excited to watch Grey's Anatomy though. Looks like a tear jerker.

Eric and I have been watching a show on BBC (we LOVE BBC) called Whitechapel. It is a modern day Jack the Ripper. Good show. Not as good as Luther but good!

tonight's dinner

I made a household favorite tonight. Hobo dinners. Simple. Easy. Yummy

Ground beef into a patty with onion and whatever veggies you want. Tonight I used brussel sprouts, baby carrots, mushrooms and potatoes. A pat of butter and seasoning all on a piece of foil.

You pull the foil up tight (like a Hobo's bag) and bake in the oven, straight onto the rack. We have an old oven so I let it go about an hour. I always have two or three that have just veggies. So if you don't eat meat, it is still great with just veggies.

This is what it looks like when it is done. See all the juice? It is from the meat and the butter. It makes everything taste amazing.

One for everyone. Pour into a bowl and you are all set. No clean up!

early day

Eric and I got off work early today for Siobhan's Parent Teacher conference. It went well (of course). See photos tomorrow!

We skipped lunch and went out to eat linner about 3ish. I have had a bath, Diego has pj's on and Siobhan is almost done with her homework and it is only 6pm!

I really, really want to go lay down. Only I know if I do, I will wake up in the middle of the night or not able to sleep later. So what will happen, same as yesterday, is I will end up staying up too late because I miss the window! haha Mr. Sandman has moved on!

Why do I still have to use HTML on here for a new paragraph? Geez!

Busy Weekend

This last weekend was so busy, It was wonderfully busy. Friday night included some shopping, watching tv with the kids and turntable.fm.

Saturday's game (Diego) was rained out (from Friday). I bought clippers for the cat and cut her hair. In all honestly she looks like crap but at least her hair is short. I scratched her all over today and saw no hair come off. I think I will get better with time (let's hope).

Saturday night our friends Mikey and Emma went with us to Dia Las Muertos (Day of the Dead) in Santa Ana. We had fun. Ran into a couple of our cousins. We had a little bit to eat there and then stopped a hole in the wall taco place to fill out. They came over and we enjoyed their new puppy Ralph and I think they left around 2:30am (old time, haha).

Sunday was the La Galaxy game. I dropped Siobhan off at Albertsons because she had to sell Girl Scout nuts with her troop. Eric, Diego and I headed out to Carson. Luckily it did not rain! Had a good time at the tailgate. I had about...oh....a few shots of tequila. Maybe a few and then a few more. haha It was a little bit cold but everyone had fun. Of course the Galaxy WON! Which is amazing.

Eric called today to try and get a ticket for Siobhan to the game (currently we have 3 tickets but next year we will have 4), but they are already sold out. Man, that game is going to be amazing. I can't wait!

crap, I almost forgot

that i need to blog. tonight the Galaxy won and will be going to the Championship! Two more weeks!

I finally did it

Today I went and bought some clippers to cut my cat's hair. I looked at reviews, prices, and thought f it. I bought the one they had at K-Mart. It works pretty well. I will post a picture later. Just remember, it works well, doesn't mean I do. Doesn't mean I did a good job. I just gave her a bath last night and now she is going to need another one because of all the loose hair. Poor baby. She was SO good too. She didn't like it. To do her belly, I had to hold her like a baby in one arm. Luckily she is used to being held like that. Oh and the hair color I sprayed her with on Halloween that we thought came off with the bath...nope. Underneath it was still there. That cat had a lot of hair.

Friday?

I feel I don't know what I want to write about. If I wait too long there will be too much tequila in the system and who knows what I will say. Doing a little turntable.fm I really enjoy this. I haven't had a chance to DJ much tonight but it is still fun to hang out. Maybe I shall write again tonight

La Galaxy

Tonight the La Galaxy won 2 to 1 against the New York Red Bulls. I thought it was going to go differently as we were down by a point in the first few minutes of the game. But we can back and won! Yeah. Another game Sunday night!

Turntable.fm

have you heard of turntable.fm? My husband told me about it and I love it! This is a screen shot of my favorite room. I am in there somewhere

You choose an avatar and pick a room with music you like and go there. When there is a free DJ spot, you head on up and play a tune. People either think it is "awesome" or "lame". For every person who likes it, you get a point. More points, different avatars. People can "fan" you and you can have favorite rooms. This makes it easier to find people you are a fan of when you are looking for a room to enter. You can create a room, but I haven't tried that yet. You can tweet or FB that you are in a room and it tells what room you are in and what song is playing. I like to tweet when I am playing something really cheesy. If you try it, look me for, CucsMom!

How am I supposed to do this?

When I am all over the place? I am a very unorganized person and I just feel even more so lately. Right now Siobhan is trying to organize her Girl Scout nut order. We had to go pick it up and they didn't get half the order but it is my fault! I used the wrong e-mail address. It really isn't a big deal for two reasons. One, they are taking more orders and two, people haven't paid yet. If they don't get the nuts, they won't care (or remember). I am looking forward to getting back to every day blogging. I know Julie will keep me on my toes. haha I love competition!

Some Videos

Beckham is especially...

hot when he is mad!

For the love of my life

Que, que fue lo que paso

De donde viene esa tristeza

Si tienes mi promesa que yo

Jamas te dejar'

Tu sabes bien como te quiero

En tierra, mar y cielo.

Y quiero ser tu mejor amigo

Llevame dentro de tu ser

Y adonde tu vayas, voy contigo

Mi alma a tu lado ir, te seguir

Conmigo siempre estar, donde tu estas.

Se, que mucho triunfaras

Y al mundo agarrar s sin miedo

Es todo lo que espero de ti

Es la fe que tengo en ti

De mi tienes toda confianza

Tu fuerza es mi esperanza.

Y quiero ser tu mejor amigo

Llevame dentro de tu ser

Y adonde tu vayas, voy contigo

Mi alma a tu lado ir, seguir

Conmigo siempre estar, donde tu estas.

Olvida las penas, rompe las cadenas

Que yo siempre estare, cerca de ti

Y quiero ser tu mejor amigo

Llevame dentro de tu ser.

Y adonde tu vayas voy contigo

Mi alma a tu lado ir, te seguir

Tu padre siempre estar donde tu estas.

Padre siempre estar' donde tu estas.

This is my new baby, See the old with the new there together? I am having on this keyboard but there is no reason to since it is the same size but without the number pad. ha ha user error! I am using it now and the screen is amazing, I watched a video I took of Beckham being mad and it looked amazing!

Nighttime is falling

The blissful darkness. I really enjoy these nights. I can't wait until it is cold enough to enjoy the fireplace. Eric and I agreed we needed a fireplace and we use it every chance we get. I love when it is pouring rain and the kids and I get hom and have a nice warm fire by the time Eric gets home from work. Ahhh, warming your toes in front of the fireplace. Or waiting to see if the stupid long hair cat catches fire as she is RIGHT in front of the fire. (there are bets on that!) The long sunlight days are great in that the kids play outside and run around a lot. But the darkness has my heart. I think because we are night owls over here (minus Diego...he's working on it) and we aren't those people who get tired just because it is dark outside. I think I wake up as the evening goes. If I could decide my own day. I would sleep in until about 10:30 everyday...lazy around and head to work about 4 and work, work, work. It is too bad that we have to follow a clock instead of allowing our ourselves to perform at our best when it works for us. Better yet, I think one of those jobs where you have to work 40 hours per week but you can break it down however you want. Two 20 hour days. ha ha

Still hurting

My back STILL hurts. I think this is the worst yet. 5 days later I am feeling okay if I don't really move too much. I work tomorrow but at least my work chair doesn't hurt. Eric and the kids are going to meet the La Galaxy players. Lucky!

Out of commission

argh I hurt my back on Sunday. I finally got to lay down about 2pm. Stayed there until about 5pm on Monday. I feel a bit better now, but not too much. I think I keep forgetting how old I am!

It's not true! But it is.

When my father first passed away. I had dream after dream that it wasn't true. People would tell me he didn't really die. It was just a joke. In my dreams, I knew it was true because I thought to myself that my dad's wife, Gabby, could never fake that. I just knew it.

It didn't matter that I saw my Dad dead. The most horrible moment in my life is not when I walked into that room to see his lifeless body there with the tube coming out of his throat. It was the moment I laid my head on his chest and thought "Why isn't he touching me" Oh my God. He will never again reach up and put his hand on my head. He won't hug me. He won't laugh again. He won't...anything.

I still can't talk about that moment. How difficult that was. Actually saying the words of how I felt, impossible.

Last night I had another. It was different. It involved more people. It involved Eric's Aunt and Uncle who live across the street from my Dad. His Aunt is the one who called me and told her there was an ambulance at his house.

The dream was, again, all these people telling me that he hadn't really died. It was a prank. He was alive and well. It couldn't be I cried. Impossible. My dad would NEVER do that to me. He would never allow me to suffer to much for six years. My dad wouldn't let six years go by and not contact me. So there I was. Walking down his street.

He is standing at his car putting something in the trunk. WHAT? He looks at me and shrugs as if to say "oops". WHAT?! I run away screaming. Crying. Eric's Aunt and Uncle telling me how he had to do it. I was hysterical.

Then I woke. No answers. No reasons. It was horrible. When I woke I knew it was a dream. I wasn't even crying as I sometimes do. But I thought, why now. Why the change in dream?

I am not sure but I need my head to understand that I don't want these dreams anymore. Give me some memories or something else. Anything else.

I used to think I saw my Dad everywhere when he died. He was the guy walking in our neighborhood I never really noticed before. Someone leaving a building ahead of me. Luckily that doesn't happen anymore. Causing my heart to stop. The tears to flow and for one split second to want to call out "Dad?"

I heard this song during a movie I watched the other night. The movie was in French except for the music. It was all in English. I found this tune spoke to me.

Early Nights

ahhh it is 7:15. I have my pj's on. I have finished dinner (okay it was chicken from Albertson's but we have eaten already). Kids are working on their homework and are almost done. It is dark outside. A nice cool breeze is coming through the windows. This is just the way I like it. Early enough to watch a movie or finish a book. Plently of time to do some laundry or clean up a bit. Twitter time or to play a game. When the time changes I will feel this way when I get home. I like it! Sure, the kids can't play outside until 8pm but we have more family time I think because we are all together which is wonderful too. Darkness brings comfort.

litter?

Do you think it is littering if you let your loose hair out the window while driving?

change

Driving to pick up a friend and take him home from work I see her. She is standing there just like so many others. Same sign. Clean clothes although they look old and don't match. She stands. I am unable to look away. Probably a few years older than me. Throwing away any dignity for a few dollars. I have a wonderful hearted friend who gives money to every person who is asking. It is just who she is. Giving. She believes in helping other people. Once, about 20 years ago, someone asked for change in front of the hospital. They needed gas to get home. I had about three dollars and I gave it to him. It was literally all the money I had. I didn't mind, I felt good about what I was doing. A few hours later my friend called. She had been to the hospital and mentioned someone asked her for change for gas. Oh my gosh, I felt cheated. It was all the money I had and I gave it away willing. (Mind you at that time, three dollars alone would get someone home). How dare he take my money and lie to me. I was crushed. But this lady...something is different. Somehow. I help people. I think I am nicer than most people. I can be a complete bit%h but I am very courteous. I will hold the door. I will be polite to strangers. I have been know (too often for my husbands comfort) to pick people up who just miss the bus and take them to the next bus stop. I help in my way. But my money...no! This month was financial hard for me personally. I had a lot of bills, but I had money to pay them. I have a college degree. My husband has a college degree. I have a newer car. We have a house and it has food, clothes and many things we enjoy but don't need. What about her? I can't stop thinking...how far away are any of us from being where she is? One life change, or one person who was there for you, wasn't...things would be so different. I opened my money spot in my car. I had a dollar. One dollar. Nothing really. Not even a pack of gum anymore. I stuck it out the window. She rushed over. I couldn't look away. She said "thank you" about three times. I looked at her and wondered what her life is like. Does she have a place to stay? Does she get enough to eat? It wasn't that she was a woman. Whatever it was, she touched my life that day.

Schedule

Siobhan started Girl Scouts again. She has a meeting every 2nd and 4th Thursday. Diego has practice Monday and Wednesday. I guess it couldn't be too bad. The biggest problem is there just isn't enough time for homework. Siobhan has been working on homework until at least 9:30 every night this week. I know she is in 4th grade and I know it is GATE, but sheesh. We tell her to work on her homework at Grandma's after school. She says she does but still has hours? I don't know. And she is with Grandma who of course wants her to relax. I understand, I want her to too but not if it means staying up all night on homework with no down time. Sigh... I am hoping we just need a better rhythm going on. She is pretty self motivated, but she might need some assistance now that things aren't so easily completed. It would be different if it were difficult for her. It isn't, just time consuming. I should be asleep now.

kept from working

This cough has claimed its first victim. I have been home from work for two days. Yesterday I slept all day. Slept all night too. I think I need some cough medicine or maybe some musinex (sp?) Siobhan didn't want Raisin Bran this morning and she didn't want eggs either so she was pretty much being a brat. She wanted a Pop Tart. Yeah right. She had a banana. I sent money for hot lunch because the idea of making lunch was just too much. I can be lazy but this is something else. I can't find my cat. Cucui opened the door last night. I am not sure if she got out or not. I have been calling her all day...nothing. Stupid cat.

Stand Up

I think I stood most of the day yesterday. Diego had a soccer game. I stood through that. I like to be able to walk back and forth and follow them on the field. Diego did pretty well against his cousins team. The Blue Bandits won 1-0. We went to Chili Pepper for brunch. No champagne this time...knew I needed to drive. I dropped Eric and Diego off at home so Diego could shower. Siobhan and I went to buy ice and squirt. Oh, and right now Albertsons has a coupon for .79 Squirt. I think I will be stopping by everyday until it ends. I have paid $1.79 for one! Then we piled in the car and headed out to the LA Galaxy game. We planned to arrive at 4 and did pretty good time (4:15). We arrived right after Heather and Eli. What a time. We had SO many people who came by for the Galaxy Shore. Our cousins Bobby and Stacy came with their kids and they brought some friends too. Of course all our regulars were there as well. I didn't get to see Evelyn until we were in the stadium though. I stood through most of that as well. That, along with this coughing, I was tired last night. Slept okay though so that was nice. A wonderful way to spend a Saturday!

Excuse Me

OH my how I have a cough that will not go away. Not only does it keep me awake, it is bothering my asthma as well. I imagine I will be have the raspy sexy voice soon. That is a bonus at least. haha Enjoyed day one of Oktoberfest at The Phoenix Club last night. They are doing tickets now which I don't like. I suppose it is easier for them only having one place that actually deals with money but it is a pain. You have to figure out how much you need first. I know, I know, you can go buy more tickets, but every time the kids want an ice cream...go buy another ticket. At least the Kettle Corn guy was cash. I bought a huge bag and our table managed to finish it off. We ran into family there too. Saw one of my favorite cousins who I haven't seen in so long although he lives really close. Weird how you allow that. Don't see people even though they are nearby. Anyway, it was fun. The kids had fun on the play area. No petting zoo this year. No booth selling baked goods either (really bummed about that). Today, Diego has a game in a bit. Later the LA Galaxy game. Tomorrow we are going to dinner with some friends. No kids! A real double date!

So Amazingly Proud

I am so proud of my husband. He is following his dreams and ideas and that can only take him wonderful places. I envy creativity. I, myself, do not have any. I don't really "see" art. I don't think of wonderful things to make or cook. I don't decorate. I don't do cards. I love music but only so far as to listen. I can be amazingly supportive though. I believe him far more then I think he believes in himself. Life is all about taking chances and this is his turn. He supported me through school. He gives me love and encouragement everyday. I feel as though I am so lucky to have found my soul mate. To know what true love is. To anticipate coming home to him every day. TMI, but kissing my husband still drives me wild. I love you babe. You are the one I am meant to be with for, yes, the rest of my life. I know it is a long time. I know. And, really, thank God for that!

Monday Monday

I've got a little cough and thought about staying home today but I went to work. I am glad I did although there was an hour or so I thought I might fade. Diego had soccer practice today. It was almost a bit cold by the time they finished (just after 6:30) Some how the cold air has not yet made its way into our house ( a couple hours later). I have little to say now. Maybe later...

committed

I am welcoming myself back to my blog. It seems it is like an old friend. You can go away for a while but once you see them again, it just like old times. Diego's game went well. I am settling into being Team Manager and I don't think I am completely blowing it! Weekends that involve doing something on Friday are wonderful. It makes the weekend seem so much longer. This past Friday was the Galaxy game and Siobhan was sent off on her SeaWorld Trip.

where of course she had a wonderful time. There were so many things I should have gotten done today, but I was lazy. I did get to the market, wash some clothes and make dinner so not too bad. Oh, and I washed my car. Went to the spray place but who cares, it is nice and clean again. Today is my friend Julie's birthday. I hope she has a wonderful day. This is where I met her many, many years ago. We have an amazing bond. I know it will last a life time. I feel honored to know her and her family. Happy birthday wonderful friend!

Hello Mother Nature

Severe storms are close to your location. That is the weather forecast for today. Currently light sprinkles with some thunder (which was loud enough to wake me up). I am wondering if Diego will have his first game today at 1pm. I am sure the rain will stop by then but they often close the fields when they are wet because they don't want them to get ruined. Especially the one DIego is playing on. We shall see. I hope it rains all day. We were using the ac two days ago for hundred degree heat, if we could use the fireplace today, that would be great! Maybe stream Breaking Bad seasons 1-3 which is now available on Netflix! Siobhan is at Sea World. I checked the weather there and it is okay. Cloudy, but that is it! I hope she is having a wonderful time. I think we should have gotten her a better sleeping bag for her trip. We had a really good one, well two of them, but somehow they went missing...

Short Weeks are the Longest

How come a short week feels much longer? Monday was a holiday and although it SHOULD make the rest of the week fly by, it never works that way. Our baby girl is away at Sea World for an overnighter! She is there with her Girl Scout troop. They left a little bit ago and will be staying until late tomorrow night. She was so excited to go I am surprised she slept last night. I told her to take a lot of photos but I am hoping she manages to get in some too! Tomorrow to going to seem like a very long day without her here.

Feeling disconnected

I am unable to be on any social sites during work hours. From about 7:45 until 5:30 I have NO idea what is going on. People chat back and forth on twitter and although I attempt to catch up when I get home, I give up. There are HUNDREDS of missed tweets to attempt to read. When I try, I end up commenting on something that is so old or has already been talked about. Usually I just glace at it and think...forget it. Facebook sucks but I check there. Again, I don't go very far. I don't care if you need something for your game anyway. At least with Twitter, Eric will usually tell me if I missed something good! The sun is going down a bit earlier these day. I enjoy the dark early. Am I the only one? It feels so late, and you look over and "What?! It's only 7:30!" That means there are HOURS left in the day! Woo Hoo I am the Team Manager for Diego's soccer team this year. Not sure how it happened, but I got through all those years of Krystal and Bradley in soccer and managed to skip it, I figure it is my turn. Our AT&T U-verse has been acting up. They sent us a new box (which arrived a day early). We are going to switch it out but we lose everything on the DVR. I'm gonna try and watch everything I can until I can't watch anymore!

Ahhh Netflix how I love thee

I stream Netflix every night when I go to bed. I have watched some great shows like Bones which allowed me to watch all of them and catch up to the current one. Most of the shows I watch are British shows so I thought I would list them in case anyone is interested.

Gavin & Stacey (comedy about a couple and their family)

A Touch of Frost (detective show) lots of episodes

Monday Monday (only one season but watched like a movie)

Wire in the Blood (psychologist working with police, I kinda got a crush on this guy)-lots of episodes

Luther (which we watched on tv but was worth another watch)

Doc Martin (cute show about a surgeon who is suddenly scared of blood) ok for the whole family

Dr. Who (my favorite)

Dexter

I am hoping to find more good shows out there to watch. If you know of any, please let me know!

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