Sunday, May 13, 2007

I was reading this book last night. I had just started it. I got to page 36 where she is discribing what happened when her mom died. I lost it! I started crying and I just couldn't stop. It went on and on for what seemed like forever but was probably 30 minutes or so. I wanted to scream. I really wanted to scream. But I can't. I didn't want to freak Eric out, he had no idea what was going on anyway. Can you imagine? I am NOT the type of person to just scream. Well, maybe if there were a spider, but I am sure this would be more of an animal sound then anything else. I am seriously wondering when this is going to get better. Time heals all wounds don't they say? I think they lie! I actually cried myself to sleep. I am paying for it today. My head is killing me. Tears do not always heal.


mackeydoodle said...

.....but holding those tears inside is worse.
It takes a long time to learn how to get through this pain. Cry when you feel you need to. It's O.K.
I don't think you ever "heal" from losing someone you loved so much. There will always be days where it seems harder than others.
Don't ever deny yourself the need to feel.
((((HUGS)))) to you.

Melissa said...

I think next time you should just scream! Scream your head off about it. Maybe you need to!

Love you~