We were at the La Galaxy in early April (maybe late March) and on my way to the restroom my leg (on the side of my knee) was itching like crazy. In the restroom I reached down and scratched it really hard. I almost cried out in pain it hurt so bad. I looked down and my previously superficial varicose vein was large and pulsating. That is what itched. Oh my gosh, I was freaked out. I am not an over reactor at all, but I was scared. The whole second half of the game it hurt. I sat worried and in pain.
A few days later, I noticed a HUGE bruise where it had previously itched. It was easily as big as the palm of my hand, easily. It freaked me out. That was it. I live a sedentary life. For the most part, I sit at a desk all day and then I come home and sit most of the night. I had to change that. April 4th I started using My Fitness Pal. I had used it before, but this time I was serious. I started walking as soon as I got home. I went about half a mile and then I would walk after dinner, about the same. It was hard. My body was so out of shape but I had to do it. I was going about .81 miles per day in 16 minutes.
That went on for a couple of weeks. I increased my distance using the app Endomondo. April 13th I was up to 1.38 miles in 25 minutes. Not a lot but I felt good. I was going a bit faster too.
I was having shin splints. My feet hurt. My knee a bit. Every step was painful. Every step hurt. I knew the shin splints would go away, just had to wait them out. I was more worried about my feet. I have had a couple of cortisone shots in one of my feet just so I could walk. It was kind of a catch 22 and I wasn't going to give up. At one point, I had such a massive pain in my right back leg muscle, I could hardly move once I was still. Walking helped, but I had to stop at some point.
Okay, I realized I was serious. Time to get some good shoes. The local shoe store we used before closed. I didn't want to go to a Snail's Pace because it is so busy, so we headed to REI. I explained what I needed, after trying on 4 pair of shoes, I found the right one's. I am ready. I can handle some pain, this is important and it has to be done. Eric suggested I take Sunday's off to let my body recover. I decided to do just that.
By April 5th I was down 3 pounds.At some point I decided it was too difficult to fit in two walks after coming home from work. There were always variables in the way, so I would wake early. I told myself one night, if you wake up at 6 tomorrow (my normal time is 7) out walking you will go. What do you know, it happened! Mocha and I went out at 6am and walked. I was able to walk, come back with enough time to sit for 10 minutes before waking the kids and getting ready for the day.
I was VERY good at making sure I ate nothing bad for a bit. That has tapered a bit but only where I will allow the occasional item. I mean, this is still life. The point is to be healthier overall. I still count calories and I walk at least 5 days a week, most of the time, 6 days a week and I love it. I love how I feel when I am done and how I feel all the time. I never thought this was true, but I honestly am happier. Just happier. I think I smile more. I feel WAY better. I have muscles. I feel them working when I am hardly doing anything at all now. It is amazing.
Tomorrow will be the 2 month mark since I changed my life. Not dieting. Not watching what I eat. Not focusing on losing weight. Changing my life. I am currently down 22 pounds. I walk about 2.15 miles per day (only once a day for the most part) and I often find myself with plenty of calories left over.
Oh, at some point, the varicose vein popped again. Another bruise, not quite as large, but I wasn't as worried. I knew I was doing everything I can. Today, it is superficial again. You can't change until you are ready and ready comes for everyone in a different way. I knew I needed to change, but until it happened, it just didn't...happen.
Eating right is so much easier than I thought it would be. Knowing the calories before you eat is key for me. As my friend Linda says "Once you know, you can't not know". This is true. If I find myself craving chocolate, one or two M&M's eaten slowly are just enough. Not downing the whole bag and then wondering where it has gone. I have gained a couple of pounds twice, but it is okay, I focus and move on.
I feel like a new person. I love that Siobhan assumes when I am home and going to pick her up that means we have to walk. ha ha WHAT?! No way would she have thought that a couple months ago. I hope to write more about how my life is changing. How I am in control.