My little man singing

A birthday party for a Princess

Siobban was invited to a birthday party for one of her friends. It was held at Olivia's Doll House . It was amazing. You can find more photos at my Flikr page. I would recommend it for any little girl's birthday party!

If you need a reminder:

Of what matters, let me tell you. Today I found out that my friend’s four-year-old son died. He had leukemia. They found out about a year ago. He was doing better. Now, he is not.



Four years old. Four! One. Two. Three. Four. FOUR!



How, as a parent, do you survive that? How do you go on living? How do you manage to make it through each day? Why? Why do it?


When my father died, I thought I would never be happy again. My father lived over sixty years. He was my father. Although he died young, I knew, one day my father would die. A child. Your child. It is not supposed to happen. A parent is not supposed to witness the death of their child.



How do you face each day? Each minute? Think of your children. NEVER seeing them again. Never holding them. Wiping away a tear. Seeing a smile. Hearing laughter.



What matters? Family. Love. Showing that love each and every day. Letting the love guide who you are and what you do.



My heart aches for her. My tears flow for her. My mind can not comprehend the pain she is and is going to continue to endure. I wish there were something, anything I could do for her. Something that would, even for a second, make her pain less somehow. There is nothing. I can do nothing. It has happened, there is nothing left to do.



Rambling, I know. I don’t care. Somehow maybe, just maybe I will say something that makes sense. Something. Anything.



God bless her, her husband and her older son. The pain they are all going through, it just shouldn’t happen.



Take your children and hold them tight. Who cares about the spilled juice on the floor? The messy room? The bad grades? Because all those things will work out. They just don’t matter. Love and family matter! Remember that above all.

9:39pm

Back from Urgent Care. Bradley decided to slice his leg instead of the cardboard with the box cutter. Good move!

6:47pm

K is asleep on the couch. Eric is dozing watching tv. Siobhan and Diego are outside playing. Bradley is doing homework and I am alterating between making dinner and laying on the bed reading.

what is going on with you?

Well I am ending my 4 week sickness. Finally went to the Dr. She said I do have a viral thing but it was also my asthma. I honestly had no idea. I felt asthma fine. She put me on prenisone (steriod) and I feel better. The cough is almost gone (compared to what it was) and although I am still having some trouble breathing, I can actually walk across the room with no problem.

Bradley has it now. The Dr. told him to take some of my cough medicine. Well, he must have reacted to the codine and broke out in hives.

Our water heater broke. So that really stinks! The kids cleaned up all the wet stuff on the floor. Luckily Cucui's 40 pound bag of dog food was on something and didn't get wet. What a waste of a new bag that would have been.

Today my cousin and I are taking Siobhan and Diego to Siobhan's school fiesta. They have rides and booths. Bradley is going to work at the dime toss booth. Service hours!

It is going to be hot today. We already have the air on. It is already 89 at 10:40am. Krystal is making something tasty for dinner. Yummy!

California lifts gay marriage ban

I, for one, am pleased by this news. I believe marriage should be about love. People who love one another should be able to celebrate that love and share their lives together with all the benefits of a husband and wife. I think it is about time.

There are many people who marry for less than love. Who are you or me to say who shouldn't marry someone else. Rights and respect, that is all it is about.

When I was in high school I found out my best friend was gay. He was afraid for so long to tell me. Me! When he did, "so what". Who cares. That didn't change him, my thoughts of him or our friendship. He shouldn't have to live his life in fear of what shallow minded people think.

As an adult one of my VERY good friends is gay. I have never once wondered if she "wants" me. We are friends. I never wondered if my male friends now want me either. Friendship. It is honest and faithful.

I am so happy. I think gay people face enough problems in people who are so worried about what "gays" are doing. Worry about yourself. Your family. Your marriage. Leave ceremonies who want nothing more than to "shout to the world that I love you and want to be with you forever" alone.

I know there are people reading this thinking I am a freak. The bible. It is wrong. Whatever. They are getting married in the church. It is a civil ceremony. God has nothing to do with it. God has nothing to do with any civil ceremonies. Let people, who are causing you NO harm, be. Be happy. Be together. Be with rights!

God loves us ALL! Quit judging others!

Siobhan's Kindergarten picture

Diego wants that candy

What is going on?

I made it to work yesterday, sort of. My boss took one look at me and said go home. I told her I couldn't but I would be going home after my meeting. I felt so drained. I am exhusted. This coughing and sickness is making me so tired. Just tired.

Watched Siobhan practice soccer last night. I was not thinking like sick Di, but regular Di, as in "who needs a sweatshirt, I won't be cold". OH yeah right! Freezing. I never get cold. I was freezing. Came home, jumped in the shower to warm up. Under the bed with an extra blanket, freezing. I seriously think I warmed up about 11pm. I slept great from 8-11, just some wheezing with a slight cough.

I am freezing again. My neck and head, ouch! Coughing a bit, but if it stops, I will be grateful. Still waking me up though.

I am just so tired. I am pretty sure it is the flu. Walking from the car to S's soccer practice about did me in. Lungs ache, body aches, tired.

Work, not today. I need to get better.

Enough is enough

Okay, I think I am starting to get seriously mad about this whole being sick thing. This has gone on long enough. Well over two weeks. Frankly it is going to stop. There are litle bubbles of time where I feel okay, then complete exhustion. Coughing, sneezing, spitting, it is NOT nice people. This is it. I have allowed it to consume me, I am done. I gotta go lay down...

The new moon is over...

Everyone keeps telling me I need to go to the doctor. I know what I have is viral and they won't give me anything. I looked it up, ha ha Anyway look at what my horoscope says. Too funny.

Listen to your internal voice today -- the whispers in the back of your head are speaking the truth. No matter what other people say, don't let them push you into doing anything that just doesn't feel right. Whether it's something as minor as going out to lunch or as major as signing a legal document, you need to be the one driving yourself to do it. Make sure you're comfortable with everything you get involved with. Don't respond to pressure, no matter how strong it is.

Blogging Pregnant

A lot of blogging mommies are having more. I am so glad to say I am not one of those. I love reading about their pregnancies, how they feel, what they are going through. But the idea of sleeplessness nights and totting another baby around, don't miss it. Now, in my defense I have four children. Enjoyed that bliss four times and four times is enough. One thing I will miss, delivering a baby. Having my husband by my side as we wait to see the beautiful baby God has blessed us with. That I will miss. I am old. I am older because I have four children. Anyone who has children knows of what I speak.

Krystal-18
Bradley 17
Siobhan-6
Diego-3 (Four in June!)

In reality it is a lot to deal with. Luckily my husband and I are a team. If anything I am the assistant coach to him. But we handle it. Think about all the different types of issues. If we had four children all around the same age, I actually think it would be easier. We have good children! Really good children. We are strict. We love them. We will give them anything we can as long as they remain good children. They are all very educated in the teachings of the Catholic church and not only know but live the difference between right and wrong. But, they are still children.

Why can't K and B decide what is half of the back yard for picking up fruit? Why D hits S because she told him to get off her bed? Why S seems to whine endlessly lately?

Ahh, but over all, we are blessed with four children who for the most part get along wonderfully. They older one's help the little one's. They like to show them off too.

My husband likes to say he would like one more but I don't think he could handle any more sleepless nights either. A cute baby would be wonderful but I also don't want to push my luck. I have four very healthy children. At some point, you start pushing those odds.

On the other hand, one or two children would never do. I want a big family. I was the last of four children. I had some wonderful (and some not so wonderful) experiences because of that.

To all those mommies out there with bumps, congrats. God bless you and love and cherish your little one. They truly are a gift from God!

Eric and Siobhan

No dening it, I am sick

It started with a wicked sore throat. Just when I thought I would have strep throat, it went away. Replaced by a bad cough. I croup kind of cough. Sure I had bronchitias, the cough still there developed into sneezing, cloudy head and body aching. Yesterday I rested most of the day. I still feel like crap. I can't take any time off work because I have staff out. Siobhan starts soccer tomorrow. 5PM, still not sure how I am going to do that. They don't realize parents work or what? We got her cleats, shin guards and ball yesterday. She picked a purple ball with big butterflies on it. It doesn't get any more girly than that. Even an all pink ball would have been less girly. It is cute though. I am really looking forward to watching her play. I hope she enjoys it.

I will set my Tivo

hee hee

You can actually buy this!