Siobhan's boo boo

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Monday, Monday

Yes, I SHOULD be getting ready for work. I hope everyone has a wonderful week. This weekend was busy busy on Saturday but Sunday was as it should it be, nice and relaxing. How was everyone else's weekend?

PAIN

Yikes, I think I mentioned that I had a bad blister from wearing Eric's socks. Today, oh Lord! We were supposed to walk 7 miles. After about, um, 3 ish, my blister (which was TOTALLY open) was hurting so bad that I was walking weird. They told me to stop and turn around. I am so glad I listened because by the time we got back my ankle on the non-blistered foot hurt so bad. I swear I will never change socks again. I was so okay before. I am going to pay for those socks, I just know it. Hopefully not much longer than a day or two.

At least I got to know someone else in the Team In Training, so that was nice. My friends, Julie, still kicked my ass though. She rocks! You can visit her TNT site too.
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I was thinking the other day why it is so hard to accept my dad's death. I wonder if it was partly due to the events leading to it. My aunt (who lives across the street from my dad) called and said there was an ambulance there and she wanted to let me know. I called and spoke to Gabi (my dad's wife) who was very upset. After a few moments, I realized she was telling me that there was nothing they could do. I said "He's dead" and threw the phone at Eric.

Eric talked to her a while and figured out that they were taking my dad to the hospital. We were waiting for Krystal to finish dance, we went home, I tried calling Gabi but she was still waiting at the hospital, she didn't know anything. I left everyone at home because I honestly thought it would be another false alarm. I called my friend Natalie on the way to the hospital and I said "He can't die today, nobody dies on a Tuesday right?". When I went in the doctor had just finished telling Gabi. I held myself together, asked some questions, asked if we could see him, etc.

Maybe if it had all happened the first time, I might have cried my flipping eyes out and be on my way to dealing with things. I don't know. I still cry just about everyday. I miss him so much. I think every-time I put on my walking shoes, I think, "this is for all the other daughters out there".

I can't even begin to thank everyone who has been so kind to donate money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. I really can't, but everyone has helped my deal with the pain of no longer having my dad with me. Please check out my site and see how amazing other people are!

https://www.active.com/donations/fundraise_public.cfm?key=DJasso

Thanks again!

a sad joy

I realized today that Diego is growing up. I know, he is only 18 months old, but he is getting bigger. He is understanding so much better what he can and can not do. You can leave him alone for 10-15 minutes without worrying that his head is the toilet or he is eating something out of the trash. That is not to say we don't keep an eye on him, but you can take a shower, or put laundry in without worry. While we were out at dinner tonight we ordered him a kids meal, he almost finished it all. This kid can eat but is obviously also growing up. Our baby. The last one. Number four. There will be no more. So it is bittersweet.

I will enjoy the small bits and pieces that come when I am able to sit and read four pages of a book on the couch. I will not repeatedly ask "Diego, what are you doing?" every few minutes. I will let him be in his room without the worry that he has found the one non-age appropriate toy to play with or that he may be eating pages out of a book (well, that is still a concern!)

But at the same time, there are less and less long moments that he will sit still so I can hold him. No more will I feel like the most important person in his whole life. No more Diego "being a baby", as he is slowly growing into a little boy. Sad. Happy. Sad. Sorry honey, not sad enough to have another one though. Are you nuts!

A day at the beach

Well not a whole day but some of the day anyway. Here is picture of Diego enjoying the sand, click HERE to see some more!

Natalie's beuatiful baby girl

I was going to go see her this weekend. What happened to the weekend?

6 miles

I walked six miles today. Man, I can't believe I did it! I so rock! It even rained on us. I was soaked. I was going to tell Eric that I sweat all that but my shirt dried before I got home. We do seven miles next week, piece of cake (oh no!) hee hee

I almost forgot to add something. They always tell us not to change anything. Don't get used to one kind of sock for example and then switch. Well, today I wore different underwear and man, am I paying the price! Yikes!

A little more than half way

for fundraising that is. Check it out HERE. We walked 4 miles last Saturday. I did 1.5 on Sunday and either 2.5 or 3 yesterday. (I finally stopped counting and just walked!). We are doing 6 miles tomorrow, and it is supposed to rain! YIKES. I don't think I will be taking Siobhan to ballet tomorrow. I think that is going to fall on Daddy! I think I will be pretty wiped out. Who knows what time I will be getting home. Six miles, it will take me at LEAST a couple hours. Man, my butt and legs better start looking good soon, ha ha!

date for lunch

The husband and I went to lunch today, ALONE! WOW. There were quite a few loud kids behind us and I was so glad we went without any. We work so close to one another but usually don't meet for lunch so it was nice.

I love you babe!

I think I need a dentist

Eric found this show online called The IT crowd. Man, it cracks me up. It is about these two computer nerds and a Relationship Manager. Here is a link about the show. Me Me
As it is we are watching it only on the computer but I would love to be able to watch this show on tv. Man, it is geeky funny.

Still need to go to the dentist ( I think I may have a cavity) and to the eye doctor (I guess these little black things are not supposed to float around in front of everything). I have to get my car a smog check (months ago really, sorry babe!) and take my car for an estimate for repairs. The kids need to go to the eye doctor too. Bradley starts soccer practice tomorrow night. Calgon take me away.....

Ha ha, really it isn't that bad, I just need to actually MAKE appointments for the dentist and the eye doctor. I will work on that today. YES I will accomplish some of my tasks today. I WILL!

Gotta go get ready for work. Have a wonderful day!

Look who fell asleep while listening to her iPod!

pictures, pictures, pictures

Here are some pics from Siobhan's birthday trip to Disneyland. We had such a great time. It might take a minute to load.

Four miles

I walked four miles today. Almost pain free too. I don't know what happened but I hope it keeps happening (or not happening!).

My mentor Melody is making it so easy. She is someone I really get along with so it isn't so hard to spend four miles getting to know someone that you like. I really hope we build a lasting relationship.

Siobhan's cousins (Tori and Valerie) joined us for Friend Day at Siobhan's ballet class. I think they might join. That would be really cool! It seems Siobhan was a little over excited at having her friends there and got in trouble and had to sit in the corner. ha ha At least she isn't usually like that.

My weekend started out wonderful. I am so proud of myself. I am so thankful for everyone who is helping me raise money! Thanks everyone!

this, that and the other

So much is going on. First, my foot is finally better. Thanks to my doctors note, I have been able to wear my new walking shoes to work. (If one more person asks me if I hurt my foot while in training, while laughing....) I am going to go for a walk tomorrow so hopefully the 4 miles on Sat. doesn't kill me.

I did some work for my new job today. I am really excited about it, but I am so sad to leave the old one. It is hard letting go.

My fund raising is going well. Hey, that doesn't mean I don't still need LOTS of money though!

I am taking Siobhan to Princess Disney on Ice next month. Some friends from work and I are getting together with our daughters. She is going to be so excited. I can't wait!

Looks like we are finally going to get our new patio. Next is the bathroom!

What is everyone doing this weekend? I am hoping for a relaxing weekend. Eric and the kids have Monday off. I will be hard at work. My friend at work gave me some books to read so at least I will have something relaxing!

check this out!

This is a picture Eric's friend took. Want to check out his blog? He is traveling all over on his bike. CLICK HERE
Can you imagine seeing that here?

Disneyland

WOW, we had a great time. It was just Eric, Siobhan and I. We really got to spend the whole focused on her. It was wonderful. We spoiled her like crazy. The whole day was about her. I will post some pictures soon. A special thanks to Louis and Wendy! You guys are the best.

Oh, I would like to add, I think I should get Mother of the Year. I walked all around Disneyland and my foot was KILLING me. But I did it. I did it for my little girl. Yes we could have gone another time, but she knew we were going on Sunday. It was worth it. She makes everything wonderful. I did come home and slept for about 14 hours. I was trying to be Sleeping Beauty.

I hope my foot feels better tomorrow because better or not, I am going to try and walk on it. That marathon isn't going to wait for me!

My first 3 miles

I completed my first three miles with my Team In Training yesterday. I had bad pain in my shins and I got a blister (new shoes). I was the last one to finish, but I DID finish. My mentor stayed with me and we talked while completing those three miles. Okay so get this, my body is sore but it is a good sore. The kind where it says "thanks for actually using me". But my left foot on the outside, all along my foot, is freaking killing me. And I mean, it hurts! I don't know why. Is it bone? muscle? I don't know. I tried a cool pack, icy hot, massaging it, soaking it, pain medicine, nothing will work. I have been up most of the night because it hurts so bad. For some odd reason it seems to hurt more when I am NOT on it. Thank goodness for that because we are going to Disneyland today.

Anyone know why it might hurt there? Really does anyone know anything I can do to make it stop? I mean, I even cried during the night it hurts so bad. I can usually handle things, of course not sleeping doesn't help!

Help me!

My secret

Before I spoke of something going on and now it is time to tell you what it is. I sent letters to many, many people so I wanted to give those people a chance to get the letters before I posted it here. Hopefully everyone got them today (maybe tomorrow, so keep a look out!).

So, I have joined Team in Training and will be completing a marathon in June. I am completing this in honor of my dad, David R. Girard. I know most of you know he passed away in September from multiple myeloma, which is a type of Leukemia. I can't do anything to bring him back but I can start to heal, and I really think this is the way for me to do it!

I am raising money for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. I would be grateful for any help that anyone can give. HERE is the website for my fund raising. Even if you can't help out, maybe you can check it often for my progress. I am sure I will be writing a lot about it here too. Please feel free to forward my site to anyone who might want to help or just check out Team in Training.

We start training this Saturday. I still need to get some good shoes. It will be A LOT of work for me. But I know I can do it! I feel like a changed person already.